My recent posts are the things that I wrote years ago. It’s fun to read them now. 🙂
Here is something I wrote about God. I somehow want it to be published exactly the way it was then written.
Here it is. 🙂
Presently, I am lucky to have God in my heart. He’s with me. But so uncertain is his coming and going that I don’t realise when he escapes quietly as a mother does after making her child sleep. but, he comes BACK.
At times, he is late, but his arrival is CERTAIN. I try to forgive everyone as he forgives me, always.
At times, I really feel I don’t deserve another chance.But, to my luck, he proves me wrong and I always grab a new one! My love for him has changed with time. When I was small, he used to be with me everywhere. I never knew how it felt to be LONELY. He used to guide me, pamper me, fulfill my wishes(good and right ones), but NOW, he goes away and I keep searching him. Sometimes, I even wrongly feel, he had never been there. My trust faces danger. I see enemies in my own people then. I start hating this world, even myself. This stage is always followed by a call, by me to HIM, MY GOD.
And he SURELY LISTENS TO ME. He arrives as love in my life and I start loving myself.
I don’t know why, but I feel, I don’t love him. I don’t hate him but I don’t feel that I love him either.
I know, this is a wrong feeling. But, I am honest, to him and to myself. I try my best not to hurt him. Here I prove myself wrong, I DO LOVE HIM. I again have that FAITH in him, having a power to make the IMPOSSIBLE, POSSIBLE. I am grateful to him. This word is infinitely small but is the only I can think of.
I am really curious about the responses for this post. The atheists will probably think of me as someone crazy. The believers will probably smile. The psychology guys might want to enlighten me a bit. I can only talk about the response from myself. I feel fresh, I feel I am better connected to this power(which people call GOD, and I do too) and I hope, it will make me do wonders in future.
Thanks for reading!